I am running no more

Glen Cox was his name. I was 7, and new to Beck Road Nursery, First and Middle School. Cox was also 7. He ran the inter-class football team. Sides had been selected before I joined the school. I got my big break when Andrew Clixby (interesting that I still remember the names) was off sick. I was in. Cox was not in my class, and he was off. I was chunky even then; and if I say so myself, I was not a bad defensive midfielder. Clixby came back; and I kept my place. It was schoolboy footie, and we added another player to each side. Cox came back. He was the first bully I ever encountered. I went in Norman Hunter-like for a tackle. Norman Hunter was a legend in the Revie Leeds team, and could teach Paul Scholes a thing or two. Anyway, as I went it, Cox whispered; ‘get away, bogeyman!’ I ran away and never played football for the team again.

That encounter with Cox set a pattern for my life in many ways. I would run rather than face a bully. I have left jobs before. My last one contained one, Desmond Earliton was a particularly nasty one.

Of course, when you are running; you find it easy to hide, which is why my last post talking about the mask. You are in danger of creating a facade and can forget who you really are. Those with a biblical bent; you can find yourself ignoring the fact that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. When you start to slow down and stop you are faced with either rediscovering yourself or keeping on running.

I have recently slowed down. I found myself sandwiched between two bullies. It is interesting that both of them were quite powerful, yet those who are bullied often given the bully for more power than necessary. Bullies grow in the darkness.

Why has this epiphany occurred now?

Last week, I was at the lovely Lee Abbey Community in Devon (www.leeabbey.org.uk).

sunset over Lee Bay

The week was led by Pete Wilcox and Catherine Fox. I went really for a holiday and thought I would listen to Pete (he is the dean of Liverpool and fine biblical expositor). In the end, it was Catherine Fox, novelist that I found inspiring.

 

 

Catherine Fox challenged us to write a poem/piece about taking God to a place. I thought about taking God to the PCC, but then thought that it would be too silly, and perhaps God would not want to go anyway.

I took God to this place, and this is why I have stopped running.

The Land of my fears

God came with me to the land of my fears

To that place behind the sofa with the words exterminate ringing in my ears

To the taunts of others

To the desire to improve myself and the improvised stories that strangled my abilities

To the school showers with the innendo and the jocular barbarity

To the envelope that contained my threadbare GCEs and CSEs

I allowed him to feel deep within his gut the horror of being found out only to discover he knew already.

I let him come to when the boss said please do some evangelism and not go to your parent’s 25th wedding anniversary

Then we watched together at the pathetic excuses that I made.

I let him come to the time when church life was so busy that I did not go to my Dad’s dying bedside, and in the moment I saw God holding my Dad’s hand and mine at the same time.

You would be forgiven for thinking that life has been so sad.

But then God took me

to the cheers of my Dad as I graduated as a Bachelor of Arts and to the tears of my Ph.D.

to the entrance of a boy into my life

to my ordination as priest

to my discovery that I do not need to run.

Life is and can be wonderful. You do not need to run anymore

 

the joy of life

Stop running and enjoy life!

 

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Regrets – I have had more than a few

A number of people have been in touch with me regarding my last post. One person has had the courage to ask what it was it that I regretted doing. I do not think I was referring to a specific thing; although sometimes I have bulldozed through decisions, without proper consultation and at times, I have mishandled a people crisis, often because I wanted it solved too quickly. I am not good at taking time, defaulting into knee-jerk decisions. I regret getting angry far too easily at times. Most of all; I regret not having the courage to be myself. Not being myself is one of my besetting sins. We do not talk about such things any more. In part it is because we have lost the ability to believe that sin is something that can entangle and stain us. This need not be taken as a statement that absolves us from responsibility, but does acknowledge that we do not live our lives in isolation, but set against a cosmic meta-narrative. I know that sounds odd, but it is how I understand my Christian faith.

However, one of the issues that have become increasingly clear as I have reflected on my life-setting is that at one and the same time, I am a brilliantly talented human being, who God has called to be a priest, and yet, I am also deeply flawed because I do not see how talented I am. I trust that this is proper reflection, rather than navel-gazing. Reflection has to involve sober reflection on a situation, and the possibility of moving on and changing things.

The flaw that I am talking about results in my putting of a mask in the desire to hide myself. It is almost like pretending to be someone else. This is always a crying shame, and it is an act of violence against the person wearing the mask. I am sure this flaw is not mine alone. People the world over are often engaged in an act of pretence; not allowing themselves to be seen. There is a danger than we make ourselves untouchable. As a result, people are pushed away. I think the wearing of masks is not restricted to a particular social group, ethnicity, gender or creed.

What is more of a problem is if and when a person becomes more comfortable wearing a mask that they forget what being themselves is like. Such a practice is a form of idolatry, really; and if you come from my own tradition idolatry is never a good thing!

So is it possible to break this circle of creating an ideal of yourself rather than just living as a frail yet glorious human being, full of the dust of heaven?

I have discovered that it is possible to start to see yourself as you are; and living in the good of such a discovery.

First, it requires, root and branch honesty about yourself. This is not easy. It takes time; especially when it has become all too easy to attempt the human journey in disguise. For Christians, this is the opposite of our theology of incarnation. In the doctrine of the incarnation, God the Son took on our human nature without hesitation and hallowed it. When we masquerade, we deny the strength of that part of God’s story.

Second, it involves nurturing the possibility of standing up for yourself, not retreating behind a mask. As I have learnt to stand up for myself, I have begun to laugh. Laughter is a great sign of liberation.

Third, it takes time to acknowledge the regret and move on.

So, yes regrets I have more than my fair share; but I am determined that my future will be mine, rather than the someone else I think others want me to be.

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Just another diffident Friday

This week has been quite fascinating, both personally and professionally. In my line of ‘work’, it is difficult to separate the two. Professionally, I have done the usual round of things (taken services: communions, funerals, wedding rehearsal, baptism preparation); asking the odd question or two as I did so. Examples of the questions I have asked, are who are funerals for and why do we ask people to say things they cannot subscribe to in order to baptise children. You will find I have asked those questions for over a decade and still not come up with answers that are constant.

Personally, I have been beating myself up all week. A number of months ago, I buckled under pressure and found myself doing something that I have found it a struggle to live with. What has been more difficult to live with has been the grace of forgiveness.

I have also been reading a book about play. I need to make time to do that. Then perhaps Fridays would not be so diffident, weeks not so difficult; and I might rejoice more often in the glory of being human.

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a sermon during august

A Story: Ethel and Tom

Sometimes what is happening is not immediately clear

This is the case in our Gospel reading for the day.

Firstly, Jesus in v35 declares that he is the bread of life; the bread that gives life; the bread that is the staple diet of living. Related to this is that Jesus offers this bread to all who will come. There is an open invitation to all who would come. One of the staggering things about the ministry of Jesus was his capacity to welcome and include all those who wanted to follow him. Thus zealots and tax collectors, fishermen and prostitutes, rich as well as poor found themselves being taught by the carpenter from Nazareth.

Whilst Jesus embraced all who would come, he also expected people who followed him to change; repent, if you will: do an about turn.

–       Zealots were to lay down their arms

–       Tax collectors were no longer to take more than their due

–       James and John, the sons of thunder, were to keep a check on their temper

–       Those who were wealthy were to make sure their wealth did not keep the poor in chains

–       The Pharisee was not to stop keeping the law, but not to make it (the Torah way) a burden for others.

Jesus challenged the ethics of how people lived their lives; on a practical; and yes, moral level.

Secondly, the writer of the Fourth Gospel, who I do take to be John, the son of Zebedee, has the Jews to begin to grumble about Jesus, and in particular that he claims to be the bread of life. They grumble for two reasons, one they seem to know who Jesus is; his relatives still live amongst them, and here Jesus is (this comparatively young man) claiming to be from heaven. The second reason they grumble is that Jesus does not fit their expectations of what messiah was to be. Welcoming all and touching those who were untouchable, spending time with the unclean, and being prepared to heal the servants of their roman oppressors, was not the kind of thing the messiah was supposed to do. The sort of messiah Jesus was could not be boxed.

Within this passage, the writer is using the experience of the people of Israel in the wilderness as a backdrop against which to interpret the life of Jesus. In the wilderness, the people were fed manna (from heaven) each day. The people also started to grumble against Moses for leading them out of slavery in Egypt. This wilderness experience was not what they expected of being free. God did not fit their particular box.

I wonder how many times we create God in our own image, and find ourselves frustrated to learn from experience that God cannot be sealed in a specific space.

Thirdly, in his response to their grumblings, Jesus too evokes the experience of their spiritual ancestors; reminding those with him of God’s care and provision of the past. He then breaks with the past, by declaring that the bread on offer now, gives life: and those who eat it will not die.

The author of the Fourth Gospel does not describe the events of the Last Supper or the institution of the Eucharist a la the Synoptic Gospels (Matthew, Mark and Luke). In this chapter, the writer does come close to developing his own understanding of the Eucharist with his description of Jesus as the bread of life.

The Eucharist is open to all who will come.

Jesus offers the bread of life to all who will come.

The Eucharist is open to all who will come as they are.

Jesus offers the bread of life to all who will come as they are.

The Eucharist is open to all who choose to have faith or believe.

Jesus offers the bread of life to all who have faith or choose to believe.

Receiving the Eucharist is not, nor ever should be, a neutral act. Indeed within our Anglican tradition, it is the great feast in which heaven and earth unite and Christ is the host; which of course can mean a number of things.

Fourthly, welcome, inclusion and grace are all hallmarks of the Christian community; but they are complemented by faith and belief. At the end of John 6, many who hear Jesus choose to leave and not follow him. They do so because sometimes the simplest of things; faith in Jesus can be the most difficult.

Jesus does not keep us captive if we would rather not follow him. Peter’s response to Jesus’ question as to whether the closest of his disciples too want to leave is informative

 “Lord, there is no one else that we can go to! Your words give eternal life. We have faith in you, and we are sure that you are God’s Holy One.”

Thus in conclusion, through today’s gospel reading

We understand that Jesus welcomes. The story of God in both the Hebrew Bible and New Testament is one of inclusion and embrace, from the calling of Israel to the contents of the Parables.

We understand that Jesus calls for faith and change. It was Dietrich Bonheoffer, a German pastor and martyr, who said the call of Jesus was the challenge to ‘come and die’; putting Christ before all else. No wonder many in Jesus’ own day found it difficult to follow.

Let us pray for grace and courage to follow the way of Jesus today.

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The Priestly Mask

When still in Sheffield, I first came across the musical talents of Adrian Snell. I was particularly engrossed in his Alpha and Omega album, and the track Messiah mask. The song, from my addled memory banks, talks about evil masquerading as good, which is a particular hallmark of NT eschatology, especially the Revelation of St John the Divine.

Interestingly enough, I am discovering that I have a priestly mask. I don’t mean a professional face that I rightly put on to deal with the stuff of life; but sometimes a mask that is worn in which I can pretend to be something I am not. Sometimes that is inevitable, a priest sometimes does inevitably have to switch from being Clark Kent to Superman at a moment’s notice. Priestly ministry is not unique in this respect. Other walks of life do exactly the same; teachers, healthcare professionals, shop assistants et al. Those differing ‘professions’ though do not usually convince themselves that they have ‘holy’, ‘loving’ and ‘true’ as part of their job description. These words are descriptions of the divine, rather than the human; but too often I am ensnared with tendency to feel that I need to be like god for people. That is not though why I wear a mask; although it may explain why I work crazy hours, allowing little room for human flourishing and necessary relationships. I wear a mask because sometimes it is difficult to be myself.

Why is this? There may well be a number of reasons. First, I forget what it is at the heart of the Judaeo-Christian tradition that love and grace are central to every fibre of the universe. I swallow the pill that by own efforts I can make a difference to the fact that God, in Christ, loves me to bits. When that particular medicine takes effect, I am left with the awful reality that I can never be good enough in and of myself. I am left with half of the hymn writer, John Newton’s famous dictum, ‘I am a great sinner’ and miss the wondrous second part, ‘but Christ is a great saviour’. Second, when I lose sight of how much I am loved by the Creator of the universe; I find myself needing to pretend to be someone that I am not. That has the potential to lead to many and varied different scenarios, usually most of them have unhealthy conclusions. Third, I expect too much of myself, rather than acknowleding that whilst I have the capacity for theiosis; I am more ashes than stardust. Fourth, I misunderstand what Paul meant by saying he was all things for all people; and end up doing my best to please people; and get tangled up in my over enthusiastic efforts to be liked.

How is it possible to break out of such a place? I have only just begun to do so. First of all, throw the mask away and look squarely in the mirror, repeating the Jesus Prayer, ‘Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me’; acknowledging how great a saviour he is. In that I rediscover the idea of grace alone and justification by faith. Second, I keep short accounts with myself; daily acknowledging when I blow it, and when I get it right. Third – and this is the hardest, lose the priestly mask; remembering it was Kevin who was ordained, fragile old me, and not someone I think I should be. 

Please take a moment to be silent, and offer a prayer for me and for yourself.

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Texts of Redemption

I am child of an urban estate and a priest on an urban estate. Thus this paper is at one and the same time an attempt to make sense of Christian sacred texts on largely white outer council estates and an almost cathartic exercise as I explain my own relationship with the Book that enabled me to escape from an estate. Thus, there are two narratives which dance around each other as the paper unfolds, sometimes touching, and often not. The two stories are namely, how are the Scriptures to be used to bring shalom/wholeness to contexts both personal and corporate to those living on outer council estates; and secondly, my own relationship with the working class identity in which I was, for the most part, formed. All theology is of necessity personal; this endeavour is more personal than I thought when it was conceived. The additional piece of biographical information that may be worthwhile is that I am a biblical scholar, holding a New Testament Ph.D. who is slowly learning to be a practical or pastoral theologian.

It is as a biblical theologian that I was introduced to the works of Liberation theologians such as Gustavo Gutierrez and Leonardo Boff, and became acquainted with Gerald West’s Academy of the Poor; and with them notions of doing theology with those who might be deemed to be on the margins.[1]

The Joseph Rowntree Foundation in its report on white working class neighbourhoods made the following conclusions which I trust serve to underline the fact that such estates/areas are usually both on the margins as well as their communities marginalised. The report notes that those interviewed spoke of ‘low self-esteem’, a perception that they were not ‘listen to’; yet bound together with the values of ‘hard-work and reciprocity’ and a ‘commitment to the place in which they live, even if no one else is’.[2] It is interesting to note that policy makers and media commentators acknowledge the former rather than the latter. Much more could be said in terms of under-achievement at school when compared to more affluent areas, as well as reduced life-expectancy. Such features, deemed increasingly to be product of poor life choices seem to be the hallmark of poverty, both economic and asparational, which can be passed down the family line, even to the third and fourth generation to throw in a biblical allusion.

It was through engaging with the contextual theologies of Boff, Gutierrez, Rowland and West and experiencing ministry in such places are part of my own training for ordination that I have felt it appropriate to minister on urban estates, firstly in Gloucester, then in Cumbria – on the west coast, and now, more latterly in Birmingham. Indeed, I have suggested elsewhere that to be a contextual theologian; one who bridges the gap between the stories of the scriptures and present day context is a, if not the, primary function of the ordained minister.[3]

The current Ordinal read out at the ordination of Priests would seem to bear this out

With all God’s people, they are to tell the story of God’s love. They are to baptize new disciples… and to walk with them in the way of Christ, nurturing them in the faith. They are to unfold the Scriptures, to preach the word…and to declare the mighty acts of God.

Wesley Carr long ago insisted that offering good models of theological praxis to people was ‘the basic activity of everyday ministry’.[4]

The context of the urban estates does however present us with a number of challenges prior to asking how the Scriptures can be used well. Firstly, it has been noted that there can be a greater dissonance between church and those who might be described as working class than with other sections of British society. Grace Davie writing in 1994 noted: ‘The discrepancy between believing and belonging… is at its sharpest in urban working class areas. Here belief persists, but the expected reluctance to practice religion is compounded by a further factor, a mistrust of institutional life of whatever kind, the churches included’.[5] My own observation based on three different contexts over the last decade is that, belief has diminished as much as belonging. This is true even within the urban pockets of Cumbria, where between 65-70% of babies are baptised.

Secondly, in common with English culture as a whole, the connection between the storylines of holy writ and those both inside and outside of the life of the Church grows further apart. This means that there is a substantial difference between the communities in which I am seeking to serve and those who (say) West was working on the margins of post-apartheid South Africa. This is demonstrated in his observations concerning ‘re-membering the Bible’. Observing that the sacred stories are not neutral; having been used to oppress as well as liberate the Black majority, West goes on to say how the normal models of liberationist exegesis were subverted by illiterate working class poor, who developed a playful and loose interpretation of the Scriptures, which placed their experiences in front of the biblical text. in the South African context, the Scriptures and their stories were known and experienced (even if negatively); for the most part within our context; the narrative of the Bible is unknown, thus making it highly unlikely that Britain’s poor would be able to improvise when interpreting the Scriptures. To improvise, as in the musical genre Jazz, necessitates some understanding of the contours of the story, rather than particular sound bites. Thus, those on our estates do not believe, belong nor necessarily know intellectually and/or emotionally the sacred narratives which, for many, help define what it mean to be a Christian community.

This is perhaps made more acute for white working class people on outer estates; they increasingly (in general) have no positive story to tell and just as importantly told about themselves. Such an observation is borne out for several reasons. Firstly, many working class communities were formed around industries that have long since disappeared; and with their disappearance has been the perhaps inevitable decline of some of the social apparatus which held such groups of people together, whether that be social clubs, unions and indeed chapels. Secondly, it would be a considerable mistake to believe that those living on estates are a homogeneous group. There will inevitably be a mixture of those who have lived there since the houses were built, and will remember the halcyon days of community events to those who newly arrived. Peppered throughout will be a number who wish to move, usually to ‘better themselves’. Hanley writes, ‘A population that is constantly trying to move on… will never settle down and build the kind of community that is strong enough to withstand economic and social shocks’.[6] With the decline of the economic powerhouses that contributed to their living together, working class communities have lost the overarching story that held them together. One of my childhood memories as of the demolition of the estate in which I was born, and the seemingly forced separation of my friends as we were flung into different parts of the city coupled with the disappearance of employment for my father’s generation.

This has (thirdly) led to a political or media led classification of such in demeaning and mean-spirited ways, which have included terms such as ‘underclass’ and ‘chav’, being used to described those dependent on benefit. This observation was is not only popular with Janet Daly and Peter Mandelson, but expressed by Philip (Y7 pupil at BGS); ‘those who are poor deserve to be; they just do not help themselves’.

The Stories of Scripture as Redemptive acts

The stories of the Scriptures can have a formidable effect on individuals. Indeed, it has been my experience that individuals when introduced to timeless stories can be liberated in profound ways. An immediate example is the story of Carmel who when introduced to stories of humanity being made in the image of God from both Genesis and the Psalms blossomed in quite a profound way. A woman in her early 40s who had suffered low self-esteem since childhood suddenly saw a chink of light. It is not because of biblical examples that she suddenly learnt to ride a bike, got a new job or had confidence to read in Church, the change was much more profound than that; however, as she acknowledges herself the stories gave her a new story to live by.

The Psalter can be used effectively in groups. It is easy to see why, for ‘down the centuries the people of God have found in the Psalms the language of praise and complaint, trust and doubt, petition and thanks, which have nourished their relationship with God’.[7] The Psalms, as Walter Brueggemann has shown, have the ability to both orientate and disorientate the worshipper. In both, Matson and Maryport, small groups of (usually) elderly believers have discovered that they are able to express their sorrows and woes, joys and delights, and the sometimes dreary monotony of daily life through engaging with the Psalms. As sometimes arthritic hands have used play-dough to make incarnate what they are feeling the Psalms have come alive. Each model, simple yet intricate in design, brought much to life, from Sylvia’s praying hands; representing the agony of unanswered prayer or Syd’s trowel representing his commitment to building community went far beyond what a simple word-based study could have achieved.

The spectrum of the Psalms from thanksgiving to lament enables a kaleidoscope of emotions to be released. Whilst, as a parish priest, I am involved in a collision with the Psalms and their writers on a daily basis; the introduction of some of the not-so-nice, and therefore not-so-safe, Psalms can be eye opening and risky. When people are allowed to hear these ancient texts; I am never sure where the journey will take us. More often than not it is to a place where there is open and honest acknowledgement that life is not nice; and that the God of the Psalmist inhabits the hard places rather than changing them. Redemptive acts are not always comfortable or immediately obviously salvific.

Billy was 11 years old when I first encountered him. He was in and out of school. Billy indulged in some inappropriate behaviour, and therefore has had a number of exclusions. The SENCO at his local school acknowledges that he needed specialist input, as did the learning mentor. The social services were involved with the family as were Banardos, in seeking to provide parenting training. A statement was applied for half way through his reception year, was granted at the end of Y5. Billy came from a broken home, where he is repeatedly told that he is useless. The local PCSO believed then that if Billy followed the trajectory his life seemed to be heading, then he was likely to be in and out of custodial institutions.

Yet, in conversation with Billy it is clear that he is bright and articulate; and wants to get a ‘good job’, but thinks that his chances of getting one are pretty slim. Billy expresses these things a little differently. They are slim because no one in his family has had a job to his knowledge. That is to say neither his parents nor grandparents have had employment within Billy’s lifetime. His imagination of the possibilities that life might have for him is therefore stunted. The story of Billy’s family can indeed be told as one in which no one works, and a dependency culture has been created. Billy’s story can also be told as one where he has been let down repeatedly by those around him: family, education and social services.[8]

I got to know Billy through a lunch-time club, which for half-term explored the theme of forgiveness through the use of DVD, clips both the Miracle Maker and Toy Story, and some of the Parables of Jesus. His response to the messages of grace were deep and emotive; ‘it is too bloody stupid to be true’. Yet, there was a beginning for Billy, to the point where he is predicted to get 5 A-Cs in English and Maths; and hopes eventually to move away from the estate in which lives. Billy’s earthy response was echoed by one of my Cumbrian Churchwardens who when after a sermon I gave on the Parable of the Lost Sons, commented: ‘the problem with grace is that you never know where it will lead; I would have put him in the coal shed’. I have deliberately rendered the choice of his language more monochrome than the technicolour he used.

Such an observation does underscore the fact that many within our churches as well as those outside are not familiar with the overarching message of the Bible. The Bible can be used well with individuals, and portions of the Scriptures can be utilised effectively in small groups. A cogent example of this was an Advent study on the Revelation, where as a result of looking at the demands for justice in the text, a Fair Trade stall was established that still is in existence several years later.

Notwithstanding these important individual stories, it is true that within the biblical narrative as a whole, there is just as much interest, if not more, in acts of redemption that transform communities (and even nations) as there is in individual salvific acts. The grand drama, that has been brought to fore by biblical scholars such as Brueggemann and Wright speak of the story that weaves Hebrew Bible and New Testament as an overarching meta-narrative involving creation, exodus, exile, restoration and incarnation.[9] Within the Old Testament, some of the Psalms were a re-enactment of the creation narrative; binding together communities as their sense of nationhood developed and contributing to their sense of hope in the exile. , Faithful Jews re-enact still today the story of the Exodus, as a present reality. Within Christianity, there is a collision between individual salvation and cosmic renewal, which has been played out by theologians from Paul through the Fathers, Reformers and into the present day. The use of story as a source of liberation and hope is well-known within all forms of theology.

The Church on estates does have an opportunity to share its story, and to contribute to weaving new stories of hope, inclusivity and generosity. This is because it is there. The Headteacher of one of my secondary schools, who happens not to be a person of faith, cherishes the relationship her school has with the church, for there is a mutual recognition that in an area in which unemployment is embedded within generations, hopes are often crushed and esteem brittle; local church and school can be the constants who are working for the common good. Organizations may come in and have brilliant short-term impacts, but are perceived not to say. The contribution of the church to the school is articulated through governance, mentoring, intervention work, reading with pupils, creating a public space for pieces of art to be displayed, telling local stories and speaking with a local dialect. Schools in deprived areas, of necessity, have to create a bubble away that is distinct from the local area; the Church need not do so. However, this flags up a particular problem with telling the stories of Scripture on estates, churches are often enclaves; hidden away from the rest of the community.

Sylvia of St Faith’s: ‘I come up the hill to get away from the estate with its fighting and greyness, St Faith’s is beautiful. I want to keep it that way’.

 

Tracy of All Souls: ‘We have tried and tried, but they do not come. I like my faith and my church as it has always been’.

 

Daphne of StChad’s: ‘We are prepared to change, but slowly. Most of us work and give and give some more in order to keep things going. I think I will be long gone before the families return to Church’

 

Creating new stories: narratives for redemption

The first step in using the scriptures well is for local churches to rediscover their own story through engagement with the biblical stories and the narratives of the communities around them. Too often churches can be perceived as either creating an oasis of colour amidst the monochrome of daily existence, hence Sylvia’s comment or have held periodic raids proclaiming faith only to retreat with one or two additions to their numbers. Whilst this may be a huge caricature of both catholic and evangelical attitudes to their ministries; there may well be a grain of truth within it. Local churches in working class estates are not to be blamed necessarily for being enclaves, they have seen other ‘third sector’ organisations decline and disappear; for example social clubs, shops, community groups; thus to focus on the divine drudgery of keeping going can consume all the energy key individuals and church congregation have. However, it is my experience that by doing two things over a committed period of time that the local church can engage with the community; celebrating its story, namely, rediscovering what the church is for (an inclusive community where stories of redemption are heard and lived), and persuading church communities that there are gifts to be given (and received) by engagement with the wider estate. For me it has always begun with sharing the stories of the Scriptures of those who come to worship; with no specific methods of exegesis, but simply telling the stories again and again.

In the village of Flimby, which is an ex-mining village on Solway coast, between Maryport and Workington, there was a faithful congregation of between 18 and 22. After 2-3 years of telling stories of that became known as stories of outrageous grace; particularly the Parables, and allowing people to tell their own stories and have them cherished and valued, the congregation were persuaded to hold two events. They began to grow in confidence that they had a story to tell. Such endeavours revolved around a simple approach of, ‘this is how it was, what does it mean’. The people of a small village church with the odd formal academic qualification between them ‘began to grow in grace and learn to be God’s people once again’ to quote the Easter Eucharistic preface.

The first was to host an art exhibition in October 2008 entitled Hungry and Thirsty displaying the work of Gloucester based artist, Paul Hobbs[10]. The exhibition attracted 422 people through the doors of the building over the course of 8 days. Adults and children alike were captivated by art work that touched on issues that related to them. One in particular, “where has my daddy gone” touched on “absent fathers”, which was particularly poignant on an estate where the local school statistics suggested 35% of its pupils had little or no contact with a male role model. Church members gently stood to one side, sharing stories of hope like the Prodigal son, demonstrating what they thought God as Father was like. This was not evangelistic in any conventional sense, but did proclaim good news that life had the potential of being different.

The second event was a photographic history of the village. Members of the congregation and community gathered photographs. The result was an exhibition that told again the story of the village, and with that the church community visibly saw that their own story was intertwined with that of the wider community.

In Bartley Green, there has been a re-discovery that gifts are received and shared. This was enabled in part by looking at stories of the Bible, following carefully through a short series entitled; Jesus: portrait of outrageous grace; but also through encouraging people that they could make a difference, and remaining with them whilst they began to do it.

Part of the learning to share gifts has been learning to share sacred space. The church does not have a monopoly on trying to be heralds of good news. Over the last 3 years, acts of witness around Remembrance Sunday have grown significantly. This is in large part because of the local schools coming together to remember. In 2011, 300 primary school children walked in silence with wreaths from one church to another in order to pay their respects. Another attribute of this has been to rediscover the theology of the nave. In times past, the nave in the church belonged to the people; therefore we have watched people grow by exhibiting art work, as well as welcoming others to provide displays.

The second step is to keep telling and re-telling the story of the scriptures, even when numbers do not increase. Redemption does not follow a particular course, nor does it necessarily mean an increase in numerical worshippers. Only when a story is told over and over again will it be possible for it to be owned and shaped. Just as the Passover Haggadah has shaped the nature and meaning of Passover, churches on estates need to find ways of making the stories their own. They need to become a people who lament, celebrate; can be frustrated, confused, angry, irritable and filled with wonder; capturing the emotional and spiritual pathos of the text.

To do this, there is no substitute for three particular movements to take place; willingness to theologically resource an area (this will call into question how ordination training is currently done), a commitment to celebrate the achievements of people; and a dogged determination to remain in a place; so that place, as well as people, might be redeemed. For only people who are committed to the place will be able to challenge injustice and allow more than individuals to fly.

The third step is to ensure that the stories people tell are their own, rather than solely that of the story-teller. This is something that I find particularly difficult. There is no doubt that within my own biographical narrative the bible was a key component for me moving away from an estate and (to my mind) blossoming. I therefore tell its stories in a particular way. The stories need to live themselves in order to become incarnate in the lives of others. Only then will such texts become redemptive; rather than medicine that temporarily can alleviate pain.


[1] Theology of Liberation (London: SCM, 2001),

[2] White Working Class Neighbourhoods, November 2011

[3] ‘The Priest as Theologian’, JATE

[4] W Carr, Handbook of Pastoral Studies (NPLC, London: SPCK, 1997) 120

[5] Religion in Britain since 1945 (Oxford: Blackwell, 1994) 106

[6] L Handley, Estates: an intimate history, (London: Granta Book, 2007), 218.

[7] E Lucas, Exploring the Old Testament: The Psalms and Wisdom Literature, (vol. 5) (London: SPCK, 2003), 1.

[8] Sadly, Billy’s story is not unique. The Children’s Society report A Good Childhood all too easily chronicles the inequalities in wealth, wellbeing and opportunities suffered by a growing number of British children. The report’s conclusions that poverty in childhood is directly linked to achievement and wellbeing in later life should not surprise us.

[9] N T Wright, New Testament and the People of God, (London: SPCK, 1993) 216-221

[10] For further details of Paul’s work, visit www.arthobbs.com.

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a paper for BIAPT

Just beginning

Texts of Redemption: using the Scriptures well on urban estates

I am child of an urban estate and a priest on an urban estate. Thus this paper at one and the same time is an attempt to make sense of Christian sacred texts on a largely white outer estate in Birmingham and an almost cathartic exercise as I explain my own relationship with the Book that enabled me to escape from an estate.

Any comments on this beginning would be welcomed.

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ending can be as good as beginning

It is some time since I mused about bumbling. This in part because I have been a little too busy to bumble; and also because it is frowned upon by some of my colleagues and friends, who like focus and consistency.

When I arrived in Bartley Green on 21 September 2009, little did I know that I would be involved in selling a church building and drawing a line on a significant piece of ministry. St Francis Church and Community Centre in Woodgate Valley is part of my Parish. St Francis started life as a local ecumenical project, jointly ‘owned’ by the Church of England and Methodist Church. It had its own congregation, which dwindled over time through people moving away, sadly dying, moving to other churches. Worship as a regular Sunday morning activity lapsed around 8 years ago.

As providence may or may not have had it, an opportunity arose to pass on the responsibility of the building to another church. The practicalities of the sale went well, but consumed much brain power. The pastoral side did not go as well. When you get bogged down in paper, people seem to have less of a priority. The trouble is when the paper is dealt with; people’s pain can be far more acute than it otherwise would have been.

The work on Woodgate Valley will continue without a building; indeed the Youth Project is partnering with a number of other organisations with the Church as a, if not the, leading player. The Community Work will continue. Thus the outcome could be better than it was.

Service of Thanksgiving and Commitment

I have learnt though that it is better to bumble, and to bumbling I shall return.

 

 

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Sermon for the Birth of John the Baptist

In the Name of God, revealed as Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

Announcement of Good News can be uncomfortable as well as bringing comfort. This is particularly true if the news involves change, and good personal news always has the habit of creating something new. The words ‘change’ and ‘new’ are full of life and vibrancy; and therefore as such can bring a measure of chaos.

I well remember going into Firth Park Comprehensive School in Sheffield to get my ‘A’ level grades. In those days, no sealed envelope but displayed in public on the science prefab window. I had passed. In the midst of the pleasure, it had been a long road, 12 months earlier the words ‘O’ and ‘F’ had been written alongside my name; there was a slight unease; what was I do now. This is not unnatural. Good News often involves choices.

The prophet Isaiah announces good news to the people of Israel. Judgement is finished. Salvation has come. Comfort, comfort my people, declares the Lord God. It is a pivotal moment in the Book of Isaiah, and a turning point in God’s dealings with his people and his world.

The prophet declares that it is now a time of hope for the people of Israel; rather than one of judgement. The people of Israel had been humiliated. They had been taken (some of them) to the city of Babylon, exiled away from their homes, cultures, and place of worship. By the rivers of Babylon: they had wept, and found it impossible, (at first) to sing songs of praise. In exile, the people had discovered afresh, what their ancestors had told them: God, their Yahweh, was king and God. Isaiah adds a new dimension to this narrative: God has conquered Babylon. Their humiliation was over.

Words of comfort and hope give the possibility for change; of life being different. This is not always an easy message to hear. ‘Good News’ can be too much! On that August day when I saw my ‘A’ level grades, it was too much. I remember freezing with fear rather than thinking of those around me of the opportunity for University. The people of Israel too had the possibility for allowing themselves to imagine themselves as God intended them to be. If there is one prayer that I have for us as a Christian community it would be that we would be willing to imagine together that God truly is on our side. Good News creates choices.

Births – and indeed the lack of them – have the capacity to cause frustration, joy, angst and indeed confusion. John the Baptist was born into a family who desperately wanted him. His parents, Zechariah and Elizabeth were considered past the age for children, and according to Luke’s story of Jesus, the archangel Gabriel had informed Zechariah that he and his wife were to have a child, and call him; John.

Zechariah did not greet this message with joy. This was not because he did not want a child. Indeed, he and his wife would have known much social shame in not having children. There would have been the sympathetic look as well as the furrowed brow, unhelpful advice and unwise platitudes. Zechariah had learnt to live with all of this; serving God without bitterness and anger.

The words of the archangel are met with disbelief. Zechariah could not imagine them to be true. He could not move into a place of hope. Too often, we are like Zechariah unable to move into a place of hope.

When I was on placement when training for ordination, I had opportunity to work with Stephen and Esther. Esther was extraordinarily nervous; and many things had contributed to this. I remember doing a session on being made in God’s image. Her response was personal and unusual, she skipped church the following Sunday to ride a bike in the local park. She had never been deemed ‘good enough’ to have a bike as a child and for her to ride was liberation. Imagining what it might be to be made in the image of God had a powerful effect on Esther. I trust imagining that we might be the people of God for Bartley Green will have a similarly galvanising effect.

Zechariah and Elizabeth though were to receive the gift of no ordinary son; but one who would herald the Messiah. It would he who would baptise Jesus and encourage people to follow him.

John by doing this imagined a different future for himself. As the firstborn son of a priest, he might have been expected to serve in the Temple. Instead, he opted to spend time in the wilderness. He learnt not to be constrained by expectations and follow his own. His parents allowed this by giving him his name. For Luke, John’s name was no accident.

I am called Kevin because my father when he went to register my birth simply had forgotten the name he and my mum had agreed. It could have been worse, I suppose; he could have called my Lynn which is what I would have been called if I had been a girl.

John was the name the archangel had said he was to be called, and in confirming this; Zechariah was freed to speak.

The Baptist is comforting yet uncomfortable figure. By this I do not refer to his healthy eating habits or his desire for the latest chic design in camel skins. Nor his oratory, which was both simple and effective calling politicians, religious leaders and a monarch to account. I refer to his relationship with Jesus.

‘He must increase; I must decrease’ was his maxim. This is a phrase that John seems to have embraced and meant.

My prayer for myself is that I mean it too. That I might be shaped by my desire to serve Christ, whatever the cost and wherever he wills. I pray that beginning in this parish of Bartley Green, we might be able to point to Jesus, and say to others: ‘Look, there is the one who meets all your needs’ or to put in the words of the Baptist, ‘Behold, the Lamb who takes away the sin of the world’.

 

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diverse unity

Many moons ago I was part of the Religious and Theological Studies Fellowship (RTSF). It started life as the Theological Students Fellowship (TSF) and was part of the Universities and Colleges Christian Fellowship (UCCF). Through my involvement with the UCCF movement, I was – and still perhaps am – involved in the Tyndale Fellowship for Biblical and Theological Research (TF) which is also part of the UCCF family. I was its erstwhile Secretary for around three years. I say this because I remember that one of the tenets of the UCCF was “Commitment to Truth”. For UCCF, there was, and still is, a notion of objective truth. I actually still believe truth can be objective as well as subjective, and am comfortable with the notion that Christ Jesus is the only way there is to salvation; but content with the fact that such a proposition is for more flexible in divine hands rather than my human ones.

I remember whilst a member of the RTSF Executive Committee – how we thought it was grand in those heady student days to be on a committee of national significance – attending a conference in Malvern (I believe it was celebrating the work of Archbishop William Temple), encountering members of the Student Christian Movement (SCM). I went along to their meetings to find that (to me) they defined themselves over against the UCCF. This is not surprising given that the roots of the SCM and UCCF sprang from the same place. They are in fact siblings, and thus allowed to quarrel. Even 20+ years ago, the issue for the folks within SCM was the perceived injustices of UCCF Christians to those involved in same-sex relationships. I endured what I remember to have been three rather antagonistic conversations where I was ‘tried’ for the perceived crimes of evangelicalism. This is how I remember it rather than perhaps the reality of what happened. When I reported this to my UCCF and RTSF colleagues, the views of those from SCM were dismissed as ‘liberal’ and thus had nothing to offer. I was a rare bird even then, going to both groups happily enough.  I find that I go to neither grouping now, or derivatives of them, whether Affirming Catholicism or a DBF. I associate with Fulcrum (www.fulcrum-anglican.org.uk) because it seems to me to be a safe place for all, and a space for evangelicals, like me, to be themselves and express themselves.

A little earlier, I lamented that people from the different tribes of the Church no longer had a place or space or even inclination to meet. Why ever this is, it is a sad loss.

There is a NT model for remaining in unity despite diversity. Actually, it would be fairer to say that there are NT models for doing so. We do not realise this because we have forgotten how read, hear and engage with the NT, gently dispensing with bits of it we do not like. Perhaps sadly I might add, we do not make time to read it.

I do not for example suppose that the Apostles Paul and Peter had much in common. Nor do I believe that the theologies of Paul and James, the brother of Jesus overlapped entirely. I do think though within the NT there are examples of differences being embraced. There are models to do it; we just need to be brave enough to see them.

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