The Shadow of Denial

Denial seems at first glance to be less than betrayal. In the context of the Passion of the Christ this is understandable, for Simon Peter is restored and becomes a model of discipleship; with his belief in Jesus, as the Messiah, the Son of the Living God, gradually evolving; whereas Judas has been simply labelled as beyond the pale. Denial has become something palatable. It does not even rank as betrayal lite.

The denial by the rock, the one upon whom the Messiah will fashion his church, by refusing to acknowledge Jesus to a servant girl and others in the high priest’s courtyard is passed over, except perhaps as part of the story of Peter’s restoration. In a sense there is absolutely no problem with this; repentance needs to be appropriately noted and celebrated. In another sense, though, it is passed over because Peter has become a more likeable character than Judas. This is intriguing in and of itself for this is more to do with what they have become rather than any firm intimation as to their characters from the Gospels themselves.

Denial is though (for Christians) the opposite of making the good confession. The term good confession is one of the phrases used by the Apostle Paul. He employs it to describe the witness offered by Jesus on trial before Pontius Pilate. Confession and witness are theologically loaded terms, for both are related to the word ‘martyr’ and ‘martyrdom’.

In the New Testament, confession, witness and martyrdom come together around the figure of John the Baptist. Those of you familiar with the New Testament stories will remember him as the preacher of repentance, with an unfamiliar set of dietary habits and unfashionable set of clothing. He was Jesus’ cousin, baptised Jesus, and the person who announced who Jesus was at the beginning of his public ministry. His confession (his call to repentance) led to his arrest when those with power were uncomfortable with what such repentance would cost them, and his continued witness led to his death.

The Baptist also made the good confession by declaring that Jesus must increase, whilst he (John) must decrease. Such an attitude, however admirable, serves as a deep and profound challenge to many of us. If having Jesus as the Messiah at the centre of our lives is making the good confession, then many of us, myself included, do not make such a witness.

Speaking personally, it might be that I come closer to denial in terms of my public witness than I do to confession. It is not that I often sit by firesides in the courtyards of high priests, and deny I know Jesus; but I do have to hold up my hands and say sometimes I declare all too often how much I am willing to do for my Lord, and then fail often times to reach the first hurdle.

Denial, confession and witness are public acts. I am too often beguiled into believing that firstly, religion is a private matter with no right to infringe beyond my own pattern of life or that witness, martyrdom and confession are worthy artefacts from the past.

Faith in Christ has never been a private matter. It transcends boundaries and involves calling others to leave their nets, tax collectors booths, and even families to follow one who had no place to lay his head.

Archbishop Justin Welby in his enthronement sermon noted

I look at the Anglican leaders here and remember that in many cases round the world their people are scattered to the four winds or driven underground: by persecution, by storms of all sorts, even by cultural change. Many Christians are martyred now as in the past.

Every Christian is called to make the good confession, regardless of where they are from and who they are. Many of us though live with the shadow of denial.

We are in a good company, with Peter and the other disciples, both men and women, who fled.

We can though, like Peter be restored. To that we need though to seek God’s forgiveness for the times the way we live our lives amounts to us declaring, with oaths, that we do not know the man.

The Shadow of Denial has fallen.

 

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The Shadow of Betrayal

The act of betrayal is always an intimate one. Is it possible to betray someone you do not know? An act of treason can only be committed by someone who seems to belong.

One of the twelve betrays Jesus with a kiss. There is some discussion, within scholarly circles, as to what type of kiss this was. The use of kataphilein has been taken by some to suggest that it is part of a passionate embrace; whereas others suggest that the kiss was on the hand, cheek or even foot. Our Gospel for this year, Luke, intimates that Jesus does not allow Judas to kiss him.

What is certain is that a kiss is how a disciple would greet their Rabbi or Teacher. It assumes loyalty and fidelity, and adherence to that Rabbi’s pattern of life and teaching.

This is why the action of Judas, the one called Iscariot, from the town of Kerioth, has been the focus of such much displeasure. The kiss a sign of affection is translated in the garden into one of disloyalty and infidelity. To those with long biblical memories, gardens can be a place of delight or a setting for betrayal. Indeed we should never lose sight that within the narrative of God, the story of Jesus is one that sets in motion the repeal of all that happens because of the Fall. The betrayal of Jesus is part and parcel of that.

And yet, this particular act of treachery or betrayal has been magnified out of all proportion. There are obvious reasons for this: how is it that someone who was part of Jesus’ closest group of disciples could hand him over to be crucified? Judas in betraying the Son of God has become the ‘son of perdition’. He has become one who is wholly other. Judas is someone who repels us; not because of who he but because of what he does. He is someone that we do not identify with and often have scant sympathy for. As people who are living through Holy Week, he is the one character we do not want to play. We have sympathetic understanding for Simon Peter warming himself by the fire surrounded by the servants of Jesus’ enemies. We empathise with those who fled at the sight of the armed militia, which belonged to the high priest. But the man of Kerioth is seemingly deserving of no sympathy or understanding.

It is easy on a day like this to get bogged down in the minutiae of what may or may not have caused Judas to do what he did. We indulge ourselves in whether he intended to Jesus to lead a rebellion against Rome rather than follow the way of the Cross. To do that is to an extent to allow ourselves to be let off the hook.

It allows ourselves not to have been part of the betrayal. Yet, we who gather here attempt to follow the pattern and way of life set and exemplified by Jesus of Nazareth. Which of us can truly say that we have not let Jesus down or, yes, at times, betrayed him? Some of us, including myself, will have undoubtedly tried to make Jesus conform to our own image. Some of us, including myself, will have confessed and sung about how much we are willing to give up for Christ, and the next moment living in a way that is totally contradictory to what we have sung. These are not in actual fact small betrayals. They have become small because we have hyperbolised the one in the Garden to such an extent every other one since then can be passed over.

As the shadow of betrayal passes by, I am mindful that the bell tolls for me as well as Judas. As I join Jesus in the Garden, and look into the face of the traitor as he says look my betrayer is at hand, I do not see one who has been hounded through the ages, I see myself.

In the moment, I look into eyes of Jesus as he mouths the words again, ‘Take heart, I have overcome the world’.

The Shadow of Betrayal has fallen

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Good Friday: Darkness captures the Light

Good Friday – Darkness captures the Light

44 It was now about noon, and darkness came over the whole land[l] until three in the afternoon, 45 while the sun’s light failed;[m] and the curtain of the temple was torn in two. 46 Then Jesus, crying with a loud voice, said, ‘Father, into your hands I commend my spirit.’ Having said this, he breathed his last. 47 When the centurion saw what had taken place, he praised God and said, ‘Certainly this man was innocent.’[n] 48 And when all the crowds who had gathered there for this spectacle saw what had taken place, they returned home, beating their breasts. 49 But all his acquaintances, including the women who had followed him from Galilee, stood at a distance, watching these things.

Thought for Good Friday

God’s story seems to have come to a shuddering and shocking end. Death does that. It ends things. Death is never ever nothing at all. The final breath is always just that. St Paul’s description of death as the final enemy is utterly appropriate. God’s story had of course come to a shuddering and shocking end before; whether that be in the Garden at the beginning of creation when the first human couple disobey the divine command or when those who were the covenant people chose exile rather than obedience. When the Light seems to have gone, precedents within God’s story are hidden. They are shrouded within the shadows. For patterns and precedents to be discerned, time needs to be taken in the darkness; that requires courage. Courage is always possible even when what is familiar has gone.

Prayer

God of hope and darkness

God of grace and glory

Give us to courage to wait in the stillness

In the Name of Jesus Christ the Lord. Amen.

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Maundy Thursday: Darkness Comes

Maundy Thursday – Darkness comes

Luke 22: 49-43

49 When those who were around him saw what was coming, they asked, ‘Lord, should we strike with the sword?’ 50 Then one of them struck the slave of the high priest and cut off his right ear. 51 But Jesus said, ‘No more of this!’ And he touched his ear and healed him. 52 Then Jesus said to the chief priests, the officers of the temple police, and the elders who had come for him, ‘Have you come out with swords and clubs as if I were a bandit? 53 When I was with you day after day in the temple, you did not lay hands on me. But this is your hour, and the power of darkness!’

Thought for Maundy Thursday

There are times when most of us will have faced moments that are bleak and seemingly without the presence of light. Maundy Thursday must have been one of those such times for Jesus. At the point of his arrest, Jesus hands over the control of his destiny to others. He is passed from Jewish authorities to the power of Rome, who in turn handed him to Herod, who after mocking him handed him back. It is if no one quite wanted to take responsibility for this particular prisoner’s death. As we reflect on not being in control, I am reminded of Rowan Williams’ observation that most human beings crave control and act as if we are in complete charge of our destiny. Jesus’ willingness to hand himself over stands in stark contrast to how we live our lives at times. As we watch him passed from pillar to post, let us ask ourselves when was the last time we rejoiced because we were not in control.

Prayer

God of hope and powerlessness

God of grace and glory

Help us to be vulnerable

In the Name of Jesus Christ the Lord. Amen.

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Patterns of darkness emerge; Holy Wednesday

Holy Wednesday –Patterns of darkness emerge

Luke 22: 1-5

Now the festival of Unleavened Bread, which is called the Passover, was near. 2 The chief priests and the scribes were looking for a way to put Jesus to death, for they were afraid of the people. 3 Then Satan entered into Judas called Iscariot, who was one of the twelve; 4 he went away and conferred with the chief priests and officers of the temple police about how he might betray him to them. 5 They were greatly pleased and agreed to give him money. 6 So he consented and began to look for an opportunity to betray him to them when no crowd was present.

Thought for Holy Wednesday

 Feasts are very important. They bring people together. This is true in most cultures, and particularly true in Judaism. The Passover is the pinnacle of the year. It is a time when they are reminded of the great deliverance from slavery to freedom; of the covenant made with the God of the universe to be representatives of all that is good and life-giving. Feasts always seem to have an underbelly, which are not good. In the midst of sumptuous foods and laughter, there are those with little to eat and no one to laugh with. Stories always seem to have someone in them whose role it seems is to take the blame. Judas is the one who is held accountable in the story of Holy Week. It is easy for someone to take the blame; it absolves the rest of us of our own responsibility and culpability. As we move ever closer to the feast of Easter, what is it that we would rather not look at and who should we include this year that we have excluded in other years.

Prayer

God of hope and exclusion

God of grace and glory

Be with us when we are blamed

In the Name of Jesus Christ the Lord. Amen.

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Consequences: Holy Tuesday

Holy Tuesday – the Consequence of Darkness

Luke 21:20-24

20 ‘When you see Jerusalem surrounded by armies, then know that its desolation has come near.[d] 21 Then those in Judea must flee to the mountains, and those inside the city must leave it, and those out in the country must not enter it; 22 for these are days of vengeance, as a fulfilment of all that is written. 23 Woe to those who are pregnant and to those who are nursing infants in those days! For there will be great distress on the earth and wrath against this people; 24 they will fall by the edge of the sword and be taken away as captives among all nations; and Jerusalem will be trampled on by the Gentiles, until the times of the Gentiles are fulfilled.

Thought for Holy Tuesday

We are beginning to get to the point in the story when it would be quite easy to ask, why doesn’t Jesus just get out of Jerusalem? You do not need to be that smart to realise how the pieces of the puzzle are going to fit together: that something is going to happen to Jesus looks increasingly probable. Jesus does not leave; instead he continues to tell a story. Storytellers and stories are needed in times of particular crisis. This part of the story looks into the future. One thing should be absolutely clear. Jesus was not a fool. Anyone who looked at how Israel was behaving and had an inkling as to how the Roman Empire dealt with dissent would be able to imagine how things might turn out. Indeed, those with knowledge of God’s story would know Jerusalem had been captured before and the people carried off to places they would rather not have gone. There are always consequences to our actions; both corporately and as individuals. Jesus sees the need to proclaim what the outcome might be. I wonder where the prophets are today who will call us individually and corporately to account. We prefer to focus on the individual, it allows us, as we shall see, to scapegoat. At this point, however the outcome is not inevitable; a course has been set; but that course can be changed. When Jesus looks into my future, I wonder what courses I might feel the need to modify.

Prayer

God of hope and journey

God of grace and glory

Help us to listen to the story you tell and amend our lives accordingly

In the Name of Jesus Christ the Lord

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Darkness Foretold; Holy Monday

Holy Monday – Darkness Foretold

Luke 20: 9-16

9 He began to tell the people this parable: ‘A man planted a vineyard, and leased it to tenants, and went to another country for a long time. 10 When the season came, he sent a slave to the tenants in order that they might give him his share of the produce of the vineyard; but the tenants beat him and sent him away empty-handed. 11 Next he sent another slave; that one also they beat and insulted and sent away empty-handed. 12 And he sent yet a third; this one also they wounded and threw out. 13 Then the owner of the vineyard said, “What shall I do? I will send my beloved son; perhaps they will respect him.” 14 But when the tenants saw him, they discussed it among themselves and said, “This is the heir; let us kill him so that the inheritance may be ours.” 15 So they threw him out of the vineyard and killed him. What then will the owner of the vineyard do to them? 16 He will come and destroy those tenants and give the vineyard to others.’

Thought for Holy Monday

Most of us love stories. Stories can capture moods, rekindle imaginations and allow our spirits to soar. God’s story is one that has the ability to capture the full range of human emotion. Jewish people knew God’s story; as their story was inextricably interlinked with the divine one. They knew its highs and lows. Their scholars could trace the contours and interpret for their current age. When Jesus told the people listening to him this parable; they would have known what he meant. Those first hearers would have known that ‘vineyard’ was shorthand for the land of Israel, and ‘tenants’ for ‘Israel’s leaders’. Jesus told this story therefore knowing it would be a public rebuke to those who were already hostile to him. I wonder what story Jesus would tell about us, and how we would feel about it as he did so.

Prayer

God of hope and pain

God of grace and glory

Help us to hear the story you want to tell

In the Name of Jesus Christ the Lord. Amen.

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After the celebration; there will be silence

Holy Week and Easter is the pivotal and most poignant week of the Christian calendar. It is a period that captures a full-range of human emotion particularly if as the people of God we attempt, difficult though it is, to journey with Our Lord from Palm Sunday to Easter Day, as if it were the first time. As Rowan Williams perceptively notes, ‘there is a danger that the alleluias of Easter drown out the cries of the crucified’. It means that we are in danger of treating the tension, anger, betrayal, denial and even death as trivial. They are momentary and fleeting when confronted with the triumph of the resurrection. This is in some ways convenient; we do not do suffering and death. The theme for 2013 that St Michael and All Angels is exploring is deepening darkness and shafts of light dances around two particular verses of scripture: ‘the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not comprehended it’ and ‘even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is as bright as the day, for darkness is as light to you.’ The first is from the opening of the Gospel according to John. It is a verse normally used at Christmastime; however it is equally appropriate as we stumble towards Jerusalem, that in spite of the darkness that is about engulf us fleeting glimpses of hope-filled light are still discernible, traced in prophecies of old. The second is from the Psalmist, where he acknowledges that God is present even in places that are bleak. As we journey through Holy Week, our God goes with us as one who will straighten every pathway and bring hope in the darkness. What follows is the booklet given out in Church for people’s personal reflection, with some additions I have mused further.

Palm Sunday – Gathering Clouds

 Luke 19: 35-39

 35 Then they brought it to Jesus; and after throwing their cloaks on the colt, they set Jesus on it. 36 As he rode along, people kept spreading their cloaks on the road. 37 As he was now approaching the path down from the Mount of Olives, the whole multitude of the disciples began to praise God joyfully with a loud voice for all the deeds of power that they had seen, 38 saying,

‘Blessed is the king
who comes in the name of the Lord!
Peace in heaven,
and glory in the highest heaven!’

39 Some of the Pharisees in the crowd said to him, ‘Teacher, order your disciples to stop.’ 40 He answered, ‘I tell you, if these were silent, the stones would shout out.’

Thought for Palm Sunday

Most of us at some point will have been waiting for something to happen; the birth of a child, the forthcoming job interview or the thought of what might be as a relationship blossoms. Many Jews at the time of Jesus were expecting God to intervene to help them. Their land was out of their control, and for the most part important decisions were removed from their hands.  Many Jews just got in with making ends meet, especially those for whom economic grind was part of the daily reality.

Jews though were familiar with the stories of old and experienced within their worship that God’s story shaped their future as it did their past. It was within the present that God seemed silent. It is true that some like the Covenanters at Qumran had heard the word of the Lord, and apocalyptic writers and poets continued the development of Jewish theology, but with the Temple and Land out of their control, it seemed that God had abandoned Israel; and within this Judaism was again trying to redefine itself.

The teacher, Jesus from Nazareth, had changed this for people around him. Suddenly, there were outbreaks of God’s activity in the present. It enabled them to dream. Thus, when they came to God’s holy city, they needed to shout: ‘blessed is the king’. It was in these words that hope came and fear began to creep in behind. For as many who delighted in the man from Galilee, there were more who wondered what it might mean; for whom belief that God could intervene stripped them of their control. For whom the intervention of God remained part of the stories of old, and stayed perhaps fossilised within the annual celebration of Passover. The outbreak of Kingdom activity placed God back on Israel’s throne. and thrust the variety of power bases and cliques away from the centre they claimed themselves. Jesus redefined the centre – and actually still does.

It was for this reason they were sure that Jesus must be dealt with. Once that decision had been made, there was sheer stillness; the absence of anything not silence, as the darkness waited for the opportunity to arise. As we enter Holy Week, where do we stand: are we hopeful or fearful, giving or controlling and what will we do with Jesus as the week unfolds.

More follows on Holy Monday.

Prayer

God of hope and expectation

God of grace and glory

Hold us in the palm of your hand as we journey

In the Name of Jesus Christ the Lord. Amen.

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Holy Week approaches

This time of year is for me the most precious.

This is a copy of the booklet which will be given to members of my church congregation tomorrow; well the hardy ones who will come despite the snow on the ground.

HW Bookfold 2013

I trust the booklet might cause you to stop and be not busy for a while

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Cheesus or Jesus

I have never ever written a response to someone else before; nor do I intend to make a habit of it. Giles Fraser offers much to the Church of England, and I usually find his Comment section in the Guardian Newspaper informative and illuminating, even when I disagree with it.

I found this morning’s caricature of evangelical faith and theology to be wholly inaccurate. To be fair to Giles Fraser what he had constructed was a ‘straw man’ of what liberals thought of evangelicalism around 20-30 years ago. Even then, it would have needed nuancing. The problem with ‘straw men’ generally is that they are easy to knock down. In this case, Fraser’s caricature is far from current reality. It certainly is true that there are Evangelicals and Evangelical Anglican churches who seem to exist in a bubble of unreality; I have also met liberals, catholics and people of no faith who might find that accusation true of them. However, to suggest as he does that Evangelicals somehow distort Jesus into their own happy-clappy image is simply not true; except insofar as it is true of all forms of Christianity.

I have seen broken lives put together within Evangelical churches; and people turned away by the same. That is true of all different theological positions sadly. Foodbanks are run by evangelicals as well as catholics and liberals, debt counselling is run by liberals, catholics and evangelicals. Evangelicals proclaim the faith in a way that may or may not get up people’s noses; particularly religious intellectuals. I seem to remember Jesus doing the same.

It seems to me that Evangelicals are now who are serious about working out a theology that is fit for purpose. This is done at HTB, through New Wine, St Melitus; as well as in Durham, Nottingham. Oxbridge and Bristol. The Jesus who is met in these places transforms lives, challenges bigotry, and offers hope for the world.

Anglican Evangelicalism may not be everyone’s cup of tea. I have some questions about how HTB’s approach might work on my urban estate. However, it is simply wrong to offer a one-sided critique particularly when the evidence on which such a critique is offered is both dated and muddled.

 

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